3 Years Ago

3 years ago this month we left our life in Memphis to start a new life in the great state of Texas. It was definitely a rocky first year or so with plenty of faith-building, character-building, and all the "good but hard" things that made us want to pick up and go home—but we've stuck it out, and we can now say we are grateful for it.

We tried to buy our first house, and the Lord closed the door. We tried to get pregnant, and the Lord said wait. We struggled through some really hard transitions in Jeremy's job, but the Lord was always faithful and met all of our needs. I am finally in a place where I can say I am truly thankful God sent us here.

Texas will always be special to us. It was the first place that we were known as "The Crabtrees"— not Lauren Gooch and her husband from wherever (I was born and raised in Memphis). It is where we'll have had our first 2 children. It is where God taught me some huge lessons on expectations and how life may not look just like I thought it would, but it's always good. It's where we learned a lot about faith and truly relying on Jesus. It's where we both really grew up a lot. And it is where we made some of our dearest, life-long friends.

We have grown to love our little suburban town. It took us a while, but we have found our niche and have embraced suburbia living. (I fought it hard for a while though!) We have the sweetest, greatest little community of friends that have become like family and that Jacob knows as his aunts and uncles. They have made being away from family somehow easier, which is a gift I never take for granted.

Texas really does grow on you. I made fun of Texans for a while, but decided just to embrace the obnoxious love of the state and obsession with all things Texas—that means, the Texas star or flag on any and everything, anything "Texas-sized", the Mavs and Rangers, the A&M cult, and of course- cowboy boots and hats. Bring it on.

There's something endearing about it, and I never thought I would say that!
And if you know me at all—you know that I have totally grieved the loss of the huge Memphis trees (that I totally took for granted while living there my whole life.) I talk about it all the time... But, I always say, "Dallas is not that pretty, but the people are what make it great." Not to mention that lack of big trees means bigger, prettier sunsets... (glass half full, right?)

Though we would love to eventually get back closer to family (and some trees), we are enjoying where the Lord has us and not wishing away this season. I have to keep reminding myself that just because the grass looks greener somewhere else sometimes, if it's not where the Lord wants us, it won't stay green for long!

It's only appropriate that this morning in My Utmost for His Highest, Chamber's said, "You have no business to find out where God is leading, the only thing God will explain to you is Himself."

So for now, we'll gladly wear the badge of honor and call ourselves Texans.

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  1. I just LOVE this post :) what an incredible perspective. Thankful you're still here!