On Waiting... and Being "Over Due"



Today, I am 3 days over my due date. 

Not a big deal. My doctor is not worried. I'm healthy, and the baby is just having a good ole time. But since I was 2 weeks early with Jacob, I feel like I'm almost 3 weeks late now… Dumb, I know (the hormones aren't helping the situation either right about now).

This is why we shouldn't even have due dates. We should have "due weeks." It messes with womens' heads too much. They should just say, "You're due around the end of September, beginning of October." I cannot tell you how many people have asked me when I'm going to be induced. I'm only 3 days over, people?? Not 3 weeks?? (and in all fairness, and for my friends that were induced, I do not blame you. I would honestly consider it if I wasn't trying to do a natural birth.) 

So hard. Waiting… We are impatient people. (okay, when I say we, I mean I).

If we have to wait more than 15 minutes for our food at a restaurant, we're annoyed. If our iPhone doesn't load our email immediately, we huff and puff. If there is more than 2 or 3 people in line at the checkout, we consider just leaving. And don't even get me started on "buffering" during a streaming video.

Its bad, I know. I'm just going to blame our culture (even though I know its my own issue, the Instant Age is a lot to blame, right?)

So, a baby would be great right about now. Yes, I'm trying to soak up these last days and enjoy every moment with our first-born. And don't worry, I've heard and Googled just about every "trick" to get labor started. I've tried a few things with no avail— then am (emotionally) reminded that this baby will come when the Lord says so… not necessarily when I do "this or that."

There are things in life we think we can control— or I guess control the wait time.  Its really humorous. We assume, "if I do this, then this will happen," then we're devastated when our little formula backfires. Ironically, this happened to us especially when we were trying to get pregnant with Jacob and struggled with fertility. {read a little bit about that here}

Throughout scripture, it talks about waiting on the Lord a lot.  
Psalms 37:7-9 Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him.  
Psalms 27:14 - Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart: wait, I say, on the LORD. 
Isaiah 40:31 - But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew [their] strength.
I know that in different contexts it is meaning different things, but is ultimately saying we need to trust Him and His timing. Trust that He is good. Trust that He knows what He's doing. Stop spinning our wheels, and just wait.

I like to think that I can control my circumstances a lot of times… but times like these I cannot help but be reminded that I have nothing to do with any of this, and He has everything to do with it!  I'm going to have to keep preaching that to myself over and over again (not just in this situation, but in everything!)

And of course, re-remeber that this Little One is in God's hands, not mine. 


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  1. So true about the due date. That's why less than 2% of babies are actually born on theirs. This is a very sweet post. Can't believe through all the preparation and hopes and prayers you have been praying for this little one... never guessed that you'd be late :) So excited to meet that sweet baby when it comes and even more excited that they get you as parents!

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